Thursday, May 24, 2007

Taking It Slow

I'm doing much better emotionally and trying hard to recover physically. I have no idea what caused this crash (which is always frustrating to me), but fortunately, the depression only lasted a day.

Thank you for all the supportive comments. When I'm in my "normal", optimistic state of mind, I know logically what causes those sudden bouts of depression, but, somehow, when I'm in the midst of one, I have trouble seeing it logically. I really hate the feeling of having no control...but that's what CFIDS is all about, isn't it?

I have a huge amount of work to do, but I am trying very hard to focus on taking care of myself so I can recover from this crash sooner. I've spent much of the past two days in bed. Lunch with my friend helped tremendously yesterday, as did the flowers my husband brought home for me. I am trying to listen to my body. Instead of pushing myself to keep working through the crash, as is my normal inclination, I am trying hard to rest aggressively (I love the paradox of that expression!) and keep my stress levels low.

Time for another nap.


Maya said...

I too love the concept of 'aggressive rest', it sounds so martial and energetic. Everything I'm not. And good job on taking care of yourself. It's one of the hardest things about this illness; we're taught as a society to 'carry on' to 'push through the pain',etc.

CFIDS demand that we decide to 'rest aggressively' to improve after a crash or maintain is counter-intuitive.
Anyway, very glad the depression has improved Sue:).

Anonymous said...

what are you thoughts about the marshallprotocol Sue?