Friday, February 14, 2025

Life with Chronic Illness: Finally Setting Goals for 2025!


Life with ME/CFS is always unpredictable! My last post here was 2024 Year in Review: Still Riding the Chronic Illness Rollercoaster! That was not only a summary of how I felt last year and what caused challenges for me but also a long list of treatments (old and new) that I tried or changed last year, what worked and what didn't. Since then, I recorded a video version of that post, so if it was too much for you to read--or you just have an easier time with video--you can watch my 2024 Year in Review (including the treatments I tried) on YouTube or below:


Once I had finished summing up last year, I was finally ready to start planning and setting goals for 2025 ... in February! 

I've written and talked extensively about Setting Goals When Chronically Ill: Improving Your Life in Tiny Steps. You can read the full chapter excerpted from my book here on the blog or watch the video version of it.

But this year, I was feeling overwhelmed by it all, especially since I didn't even start thinking about the new year until we were a month into it! I expressed these frustrations in a video, How Do You Juggle It All? Without Feeling Overwhelmed. Based on the comments, I think a lot of people--both healthy and sick--could relate to my feelings. Watch it on YouTube or below:


My own goals process had become more and more complex over the years, so this year I decided to take my own advice! I focused on only a few objectives for each of my Lifetime Goals and really tried to narrow my attention to tackle that feeling of always being overwhelmed. And to keep my limitations in mind.

Given the ups and downs in my health last year, health remains a big focus for me (of course). I also got rid of perennial goals that have become a part of my normal routine, like diet, walking (when I am up to it), daily yoga stretches, and resting when I crash. What I was left with, under my goal of optimizing my health (given my illness) was:

  • Set up mold inspection & follow-up on results
  • Continue to avoid infection risks
  • Find new primary care doctor (mine of 23 years just retired!)
  • Talk to my ME/CFS specialist about my changing immune dysfunction
  • Try therapy for dysfunctional family relationships

I have similarly streamlined goals for the other areas of my life, with a big focus on traveling more this year with my husband and our camper.

Things were going quite well with my new approach, and I was feeling less overwhelmed and stressed. Then, a few days ago, some viral symptoms started. I haven't had a cold or other everyday virus in 20 years due to my immune system over-reacting to most viruses. I immediately thought it must be COVID (which is in a class of its own, plus I don't make many antibodies against it). Three days in, I still feel like I have a cold. It's not nearly as severe as my bout of COVID last summer (and I've had two negative tests so far). I am completely mystified because this just doesn't happen to me, but I am hopeful I will recover in a short-ish time. 

Meanwhile, I am resting a lot, ditching all those carefully thought-out plans for the moment, and being very, very cautious. I'm following my own advice and upping the doses of all my herbal anti-virals. I have no idea what's going on with me, but I'm hoping for the best. The first of our month-long road trips is supposed to begin in less than a month, so fingers crossed!


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Monday, January 27, 2025

2024 Year in Review: Still Riding the Chronic Illness Rollercoaster!


For the second year in a row, I'm referring to the past year as a rollercoaster (in fact, Riding the Chronic Illness Rollercoaster is the name of a chapter in my book!) because that's the best description for it, with major highs and major lows last year in my life with ME/CFS and Lyme. In this post, I'll provide a brief overview of my year and what caused those ups and downs, review the many different treatments I tried (or restarted or stopped) and what helped and what didn't. I also made a video summary, if you prefer to watch (I'll link it here after it's edited and posted or you can check my YouTube channel).

NOTE: I like data and am an analytical person. For details on how I simply track how I feel on a calendar, check out my post, My Progress in 2020 and Goals for 2021 and scroll down to My Health in 2020 and below that, the section called "How Do I Know This?" Or you can watch my short video, Chronic Illness: Tracking How I Feel, Symptoms, and Treatments. I use a 1 to 5 rating, where 1 is good and 5 is mostly bedridden. I also rate my exertion each day on a 1 to 5 scale. And for details on the process I use for goals, which focuses on taking very small steps toward what I want in my life, see my video, Setting Goals When Chronically Ill (Improve Your Life in Tiny Steps).

 

Overview of My Health in 2024

Average How I Felt = 2.5 (1 is good; 5 is bad)

  • Same as 2023.
  • My best months were 2.1, and my worst was 3.5 (rollercoaster!).

Average % crashed = 14% (meaning I was couchbound/bedridden 14% of the time)

  • Crashed = a 3.5, 4, or 5 on my scale, unable to function, stuck in bed or lying on the couch.
  • The average doesn't tell the whole story because there were six months without a single crash day and months where I was crashed more than 50% of the time.

Average exertion = 3.8 (on a scale of 1 to 5)

  • Same as 2023.
  • Again, there were good months and bad. 

Month-by-Month Changes & Why:

January to June - I felt great, not a single crash day in six months! My average "how I felt" each month was 2.1 or 2.2, which is very good for me. My average exertion was 4 on a scale of 1 to 5! I was active and feeling great and not crashing at all.

July/August - I got COVID in early July (my second time), and my crash-free streak came to an abrupt end. I was very sick but got on Paxlovid immediately (see treatments below). I started to recover in August.

September - By the end of September, I was fully recovered from COVID and back to my excellent baseline of the start of the year, able to be active again without crashing and feeling good every day.

October to December - Around mid-October, I went into an ME/CFS relapse, with severe flu-like aches every day (a sign that my immune system was over-active). I have no idea why it started; it's likely I was exposed to something (someone's cold, for instance). I was still in terrible shape by Christmas but finally recovered back to a good baseline in the second week of January, the relapse ending as mysteriously as it started.

 

Treatments - What Helped & What Didn't

Treating Hypothyroidism in 2023 - I spent all of 2023 working with my primary care doctor to try to effectively treat very low thyroid function. I got lab tests every two months, she adjusted my meds based on the results, and by the end of the year, I was feeling much, much better with great energy. In early 2024, I continued that treatment and gradually added Iodoral (iodine supplement), which also helped. All of this is explained in detail in my Diagnosing and Treating Thyroid Dysfunction post (a very common issue in ME/CFS and long-COVID). I also lost 19 pounds just from treating hypothyroidism, with no other changes. Helped a lot.

Carnivore/Keto Diets (low carb) - At the start of 2024, I changed my diet dramatically to try to get yeast overgrowth under control (I was already doing everything else on the list in my Treating Yeast Overgrowth post.) I ate a mostly carnivore diet for the first three months, and I immediately felt much, much better (the end of 2023 had been rough, too, due to yeast). In April, I transitioned to a keto diet (I explain paleo, keto, and carnivore diets in this video) and kept that up. I lost an additional 7 pounds from the diet changes, and my cholesterol and triglycerides have never been lower! My husband, who is healthy, lost 20 pounds just from the diet changes. Helped a lot.

Changed Probiotics & Added Pancreatic Enzymes Based on Test Results and Goals - I worked with our functional medicine specialist (someone who looks at the body as a whole instead of just one system). She did a Gut Zoomer test for me (stool testing offered by Vibrant Labs) which provided a lot of interesting information. Based on my results, I started pancreatic enzymes (see Digestive Enzymes below) and switched to different probiotics, based on both my test results and my goal of controlling yeast overgrowth. Helped with controlling yeast.

Stopped Inosine - Inosine is an immune modulator that helped my son and I for over 15 years (read more about inosine and how to use it here). I had been taking a break from it (necessary to keep it working) and when I tried to restart it last year, it seemed to overstimulate my immune system and maybe make my yeast overgrowth flare up. I've noticed that my immune dysfunction in the last few years is more overactive/up-regulated, where it used to be more of a mixed bag. So, for now, I'm not taking it. But it helped for decades, and I will definitely keep it as an option. For now, stopping it helped.

Paxlovid - This was essential to my quick recovery (for someone with ME/CFS) from COVID last year. When I got COVID in 2022 and Paxlovid was not available, it took me 6 months to recover back to baseline. This year, it took about 2 months - big difference! You can read more about my experiences with COVID and Paxlovid here. Helped a lot.

Oxytocin Nasal Spray - This is one of several new treatments I tried last year that my ME/CFS specialist recommended, based on new evidence or research. Many articles have been written about oxytocin (often called the "feel good" hormone) possibly being helpful for those with ME/CFS, long-COVID, and fibromyalgia. It didn't help me--and maybe made me feel worse--but it is helpful for some. Didn't help me.

Digestive Enzymes - Another new treatment suggested by my ME/CFS specialist, based on recent research. The studies showed that people with ME/CFS and long-COVID don't fully digest our foods, so digestive enzymes can be helpful. She recommended a supplement, which I got, and also prescribed prescription enzymes. When I picked up the Rx, I found that its ingredients were identical to the pancreatic enzymes I'd been taking all year, except that the supplement had much higher levels of each enzyme. So, I kept up the pancreatic enzymes, added the digestive enzymes, and didn't take the prescription. I think this is what helped me recover that last bit after COVID so that I was feeling good and able to be active again without crashing. Helped.

 LOLA (L-ornithine/l-aspartate) - Again, my ME/CFS specialist suggested this blend of two amino acids based on recent research into the metabolic changes in ME/CFS and long-COVID (read more here). I plan to write a blog post about this, as it is attracting a lot of attention. It didn't seem to help me, but I tried it in the middle of that awful relapse when nothing was helping, so I may try again. Didn't help me but is helping some others.

Valtrex - This antiviral (generic name is valacyclovir) works against all herpes-family viruses (like EBV, HHV-6, CMV, HV-1, etc.). Since it's known that the immune dysfunction of ME/CFS makes these old, dormant viruses reactivate, and my doctor and I knew my immune system was "stuck" in an overactive state, I tried 3 months of Valtrex, but I guess that wasn't my problem this time. It helped me a lot in the past (back in 2006), especially with improved mental clarity (mostly eliminated brain fog) but didn't help this time - again, nothing was helping in those last months of the year! Helped me before but didn't help me this time. 

Prednisone (steroids) - Steroids should be used in ME/CFS with caution, only in specific cases where it's indicated, and only for short periods of time. Again, my doctor and I could tell my immune system was stuck in an overactive state, and prednisone suppresses the immune system, so we hoped it would calm the immune system down for me. Since most with ME/CFS (like me for the first 18 years or so) usually have an immune system that is partly overactive and partly underactive, steroids are not normally helpful and could be dangerous. I tried two rounds of just 5 days each. While it didn't immediately end my relapse, I did see a small improvement after each round (though I don't feel good while I'm on them and need extra beta blockers because it raises my heart rate even more). Probably helped, I think.

Stopped Low-Dose Naltrexone (for now) - As you can see, I tried pretty much everything those last few months! I was desperate. On the theory that any treatment for the immune system might be too stimulating while my immune system was stuck in this overactive state, I temporarily stopped taking LDN. Note that I have been taking it for about 18 years now, and it helped me tremendously for a long time. For now, I'm taking a break. It may be only coincidence, but my relapse finally ended about a week later. I will definitely try to restart it at some point. More info on LDN, how it works, and dosingI think it helped?

 

As you can see, I got pretty desperate at the end of the year and tried everything I and my doctors could think of! And my relapse may have ended, much like it started!, coincidentally for mysterious reasons I don't know. But this is why I track how I feel and the treatments I try, to try to see cause and effect.

So far, in 2025, once I got past that relapse around the second week of January, I have been feeling really good, just like during the first six months of 2023. My "how I feel" score has been a steady 2 every single day since the relapse ended, and I have been gradually, carefully increasing my exertion levels again. As of this week, I am walking about 20-40 minutes almost every day (with my heart rate monitor on) and am back to doing small on-the-floor strengthening routines for upper body, lower body, and core three times a week ... and not a single crash! 

Keep in mind that this is all very good for someone with ME/CFS. I still need 9.5 hours of sleep a night (but not 10.5 hours like the past few months), a nap every afternoon, and am still careful to stay within my limits--but those limits are wider now. We are making a lot of travel plans for 2025, so I am hoping my relatively good health continues!

So, that was my 2024.

How was last year for you?
 
What treatments help you?
 
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Wednesday, January 22, 2025

Favorite Movies Watched in 2024

Once again, I reviewed just 9 movies in 2024, in part because there is so much great TV to watch now. I only review movies that I really enjoy, so any movies on my entire 2024 list (below) are worth watching, not just my top picks. Also, it's almost impossible these days to label a movie in a single genre, so I included some explanation for most of them.

As in years past, my top picks in each genre are just below and my full list of movies reviewed last year  is further down. To see all of the movies I have reviewed on my blog--a considerable list--check out the Movies tab, where they are listed by genre (keeping in mind there's a lot of cross-over). Links go to my reviews, with a trailer. Note that where each movie is available might have changed, since I first reviewed it, so double-check to see where you can watch it now.

 

Best of the Best Movies Watched in 2024

Note how many of my top picks were adapted from books:

Best Action/Suspense/Thriller

Stillwater 

Matt Damon is excellent as a father from Oklahoma trying to save his daughter who's been imprisoned in France. Combines family drama, mystery, and legal drama.

 

Best Drama

Can I declare a 4-way tie? All of these (see below) were excellent and recommended (how does the Academy decide?).

Killers of the Flower Moon 

Outstanding in every way, with an all-star cast and fabulous cinematography. An historical drama about mysterious murders of Indigenous people in early 1900's Tulsa. Based on the nonfiction book by David Grann.

 

 Best Comedy

Probably our favorite movie of the year! This warm, thoughtful, entertaining movie about books, writing, and the publishing industry is also laugh-out-loud funny. Based on the novel Erasure by Percival Everett, proving he was brilliant even before James.

American Fiction



Best Sci Fi

I was tempted to pick A Quiet Day (see below) because it was more my style, but there is no question that these two movies, based on the best-selling novel, are epic sci fi masterpieces.

Dune and Dune Part 2

 

 

All Movies Reviewed in 2024

All of these are worth watching! See the Movies tab for more great movies.

Action/Suspense/Thriller

Hit Man (thriller with romcom elements)
Stillwater (also a family drama)

 

Drama

The Holdovers (funny, too)
Killers of the Flower Moon (suspenseful historical drama)
My Old Ass (but also very funny)
Next Exit (sci fi setting with focus on characters and plenty of humor)


Comedy

American Fiction (also a warm, thoughtful drama)

 

Sci Fi 

Dune and Dune Part 2

A Quiet Place: Day One (sci fi thriller with focus on characters)

Monday, January 20, 2025

A Look Back at Travel and Outdoors in 2024


Last week, I put together a highlight reel of all of our outdoor trips from last year, a Travel Year in Review. We travel with our little camper--our home away from home--so we go at our own pace and usually have very relaxing trips. It's so rejuvenating to get outside and spend so much time surrounded by nature; it's very peaceful and provides a lovely break from the usual busy, online life I lead. My illness did interrupt our travels a couple of times last year, which I mention in the video, but we were fortunate to be able to travel to some lovely places and surround ourselves with natural beauty.

We took six camping trips in 2024 to various state parks in Virginia, Pennsylvania, New York, and Delaware--mostly close to home or within an easy day's drive. We also visited some local attractions, including bookstores, a natural history museum, a historic small town, and a historic site (which we happened to visit on an important anniversary for the site). The video provides an overview of all of that, with lots of footage of peaceful nature scenes: waterfalls, forests, lakes, running streams, and gorgeous fall foliage. I hope you enjoy vicariously coming along with us.

You can watch the video on YouTube or below:


In other news, my three-month-long relapse finally ended a couple of weeks ago! I have slowly been coming back to life, taking short walks, getting out of the house, and even seeing friends (carefully, of course).

However, being in such bad shape for so long put me way behind on ... well, everything! I'm working to catch up, so I hope to finally take a look back at my health in 2024, including what helped (and what didn't), so look for my annual health review soon.

Were you able to travel or spend time outdoors in 2024?

What are your favorite places to visit or outdoor spaces to relax?

Let me know in the comments below.

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In other news, my three-month-long relapse finally ended a couple of weeks ago! I have slowly been coming back to life, taking short walks, getting out of the house, and even seeing friends (carefully, of course).

However, being in such bad shape for so long put me way behind on ... well, everything! I'm working to catch up, so I hope to finally take a look back at my health in 2024, including what helped (and what didn't), so look for my annual health review soon.

Were you able to travel or spend time outdoors in 2024?

What are your favorite places to visit or outdoor spaces to relax?

Let me know in the comments below.

You can also connect with me on Facebook and Twitter and Instagram.


Friday, January 10, 2025

My Relapse Is Finally Ending!

I got out on a local walking trail today!

Sorry I've been so absent from the blog; I was pretty wiped out after the holidays. But I have good news! After three months of being badly relapsed with my chronic illness (ME/CFS) and stuck on the couch, I am starting to come back to life. The last two weeks, I had some better days but was very up and down: good day, bad day, good day, bad day, etc. This week, I have finally turned the corner. Today is my fourth good day in a row, so I don't think this is a fluke. I seem to be finally coming back to life.

I left the house three times this week, after months of being stuck on the couch. One of those was a trip to the orthodontist to get Invisiline (at age 59!), but even that was a big thrill. I ran a few small errands in our little town, and it felt so good just to be out in the world again, in my little red car, singing along to the radio, and seeing people besides my husband! And today, I got a long overdue haircut and ran into an old friend I hadn't seen in over 10 years!


For the last two days, after several days with no flu-like aches, I cautiously began walking again: still  tiny walks of about 15 minutes, but I left our little cul-de-sac! Such a thrill 😀 And today, the temperature went above freezing for the first time in over a week, so my timing was great--that sunshine felt so good.

This is the song that's been going through my head today (it's a weird video & some weird lyrics, so I'm not sure what the artist intended, but the chorus has been going through my head and making me smile):


What caused the relapse and why did it end? I have no idea! I wish I had some answers, but this disease defies logic (which makes me crazy--I like logic). The flu-like aches (a sign of immune activation) began on a random day in mid-October. My best guess is that I was possibly exposed to someone's random cold, and it triggered my immune system into overdrive for three months. I wear a mask in public, but sometimes my son or close friends come to visit (I realize I should be wearing a mask then, too) or (rarely) we eat in a restaurant where I have to remove my mask. 

Or perhaps it was simply an increase in allergies triggering my immune system to rev up. My main allergies are to dust and mold, and the timing sort of coincides with spending more time indoors (and molds increase in fall with leaves on the ground), though we had a very warm, dry fall this year. Who knows? I wish I knew what the trigger was so I could prevent it next year because I am really sick of being at my worst during the holiday season.

For a while, I thought it was the same thing that caused a bad relapse at the end of last year: yeast overgrowth, which is chronic for me and many people with ME/CFS or long-COVID, due to the specific kind of immune dysfunction we have. But I got extra-strict with my diet (still doing a keto diet) and switched to a stronger prescription antifungal than I normally take for a month. My dentist even checked me out and said there was absolutely no sign of thrush in my mouth, so I don't think that was the cause this time.

Perhaps my treatments played some role in my improvement. I took two 5-day rounds of steroids in December, in a desperate attempt to calm down my immune system so I would feel better by Christmas. I actually felt awful Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, but I was also doing way too much with lots of people here. But maybe the steroids did eventually help calm down my immune system. I do think the aches were less severe afterwards.

I also played around with my immune treatments, wondering if instead of their typical moderating effect, they might be further over-stimulating my immune system. I went off low-dose naltrexone for the first time in about 16 years. I tried restarting it a couple of times, then gave up and just stayed off it (for now). [Though note that it helped me tremendously for those 16 years, so it is worth trying. Details at the link.] I also stopped my daily glutathione nasal spray for a week or two, but I have restarted it, which coincided with feeling better. It's all such a guessing game because SO many factors can affect how we feel (including random things like the weather).

I'm due for another increase in my thyroid medications (for hypothyroidism) after labwork showed my numbers still well below normal in November, but other than that, I plan to stay the course and not change anything else for now. Don't want to mess with success!

We are starting to plan some big road trips with our camper for 2025, but you know how it is with this crazy disease! Last year, I got COVID in July and had to cancel five campground reservations for a two-week trip we planned. So, we will make reservations and hope for the best.

Now that I'm feeling better, I hope to do a 2024 wrap-up, both here and on YouTube, like I usually do at the start of a new year.

How are you so far in 2025?

What are your hopes and plans for the new year (relative to health or anything else)?

Let me know in the comments below.

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